i'm going to get dead alone

I want to eat but I have no hunger. Fucking airport bullshit yesterday. Got there 4 hours before my flight departed with 4 cigarettes to my name and rapidly chain smoked my stock. Felt ultra insane after 2 sleepless nights. Sleep deprivation induced hallucinations. Tumultuous Turbulence. Feared for my life. Silence. Deep sleep. Nicotine withdrawals. Extreme agitation. Got home and did my best to explain "what are you doing with my life?" So many dogs with bad hair cuts; I can't even count them. Roof jumpers, all of them.Buddha is the best boy. My own haircuts keep getting worse. It doesn't take any confidence to look like a hot mess. Much Needed Sleep. Fucked up frightmares involving my mom getting knocked up by my brother, anti-abortionists, failed attempts at cruise ship escape, trying to borrow a camera to take pictures of professional wrestlers, violently sucking face of former fuck. Woke up to an empty house. No cars. Silence. My mom buys me cigarettes. "Do I look thinner?" You look... You look... You look. New teeth. Mine are falling out of my face. I don't want them anymore. "It hurts to be pretty." Trying really hard not to snark.

rip her 2 shredz

*I am definitely down with the sickness*
Gotta get well so I can meet you, baby:

THAT'S MY GODBABY! Right now she just looks like a baby but someday she's going to be a real person.


I share my bed with spiders. Get fucked. Id suck your dick just for the missed connection. LOLzzz




"THE WORLDS GREATEST BOOGIE BAND"::

I'm going to be true to you

Well what the shit. Things are happening and I'm totally stoked on them.
My god-daughter was born November 14, 2009 @ 8:24 central standard time. Aurora Noel. I get to meet her next week. I'm completely overjoyed.

Tyler & I got our slut on @ Jake's Amateur Strip Contest. He went 1st & I went 3rd. The judging was three hours later and neither of us won. Tyler did some sick acrobatic jamz on that poll and I fell of the stairs in my doll-faced pasties. IM-BARE-ASSED. Father fucking shot2theface pt.2 why is this our fate?!

In heavier news, I'm on a gnarly mother fucking baking kick. 2nite was dark chocolate craisin almond zucchini muffinz. goddamn delicious. The power went out shortly after devouring them and we had a seance for Ronald Reagan. Doors started mysteriously shutting and shit got hella conservative up in here. FRRRREEEEAKY. anyway, it was very romantic. ,,, & IPOD shuffle was EERILY synchronized with my dome wavez. I was feeling ultra nostalgic and romping around the house in the dark like Jason & I used to do when we didn't pay our bills. When we made a wall of furniture and camped in the living room to keep the heat in. When we spent the day at the panadería eating churros con chocolate. Before the days of "Want sex? Got sex!"
Smut'z about to be distributed @ Danger Room and we're going to make $300,000,000.....just enough to buy Playboy and merge the two companies into Playsmut.Watch out, we're bout to be RICH BITCHES.
Sometimes I get real stubborn and disobedient and I don't want to acknowledge or admit to myself the extent that things have improved in the last 90 days. People trust me with their children now. Ok, these people are mostly homeless tweakers with no other choice, but I wouldn't have been willing to give up my time before.
HERE'S THE THING I LOVE YOU.


OH WOW I ALMOST 4GOT 2 SHOW U THE THINGS. HERE THEY ARE:

 

here are some things i am thinking about right now

 

You can get this one on t-shirts and coffee mugs.,,,

 

i think this my way of saying im hungry

 

 

 

 

 

 

this is how i feel 2day

ohok

Y IZ TIHS MY #1UPUBE VIDYO

TA2ZRKOOL

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WAIT IS THIS A REALLY BAD IDEA I CAN'T TELL I LIKE IT I'M GOING 2 GET IT DONE ON THURSDAY OKAY

WELL IT CAN'T BE ANY WORSE THAN THIS:

BUT HOLY SHIT THIS ONE IS REALLY AMAZING:

  


PEACHES CHRIST I WANT THEM ALLLLL

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